He looks pretty happy to me! Even little rainclouds aren't always sad and crying.

"How have I made the world smile today?"

I think this is a good question to ask myself everyday. I know I can't make everyone happy, but what if I tried to bring good in the world through small deeds every day? It could be through giving a rose, leaving a note for someone you love, or just smiling big and telling someone hello!
I'm going to try to make life better by doing small things (and some big things, too)!

Tara

P.S. I'm working on my blog's look. Playing with colors.

Wow, long time, no write

So, what's been going on in my life?
I know I don't EVER want to go to hell, because I felt what it's like just a few months ago.
"Tara, there is no way you could know what hell is really like!"
Dang straight about that.
But what I felt crushed my soul, killed me a little inside, and made me say "How could there be a God" for a while.
I don't know what hell is like, but that hurt so much I know hell can't be very far off from it. So, I'm determined not to go there. Ever.

Let me tell you, that I have not been sitting around, moping and being depressed for the last five months. Oh, HECK no.
It sucked, okay? I never want to go through that again. But I stopped letting it eat at me, and I have been living. The past doesn't rule me, but it does spring up sometimes to poke me in the side and say "Look what you caused!"
No...

• I went to an anime convention
  
• I got dirty all over looking for crystals
• I freaked when I found ticks when walking through the woods
• I took summer classes and wrote essays about what I care about.
• I drew, I wrote, I took pictures, all in all I tried to be creative, not destructive
  
• My dog died.
• My grandpa had surgery.
• I bought a wig, a costume, and boots.
• I introduced my mom to anime, and we've been spending time to together by watching my favorite show, FMA.
• I started going to a psychiatrist.
• I cried
• I laughed
• I was tickled to tears while I was stuck under a door in a hotel.
• I met the man of my dreams, and had my picture with him. He helped me heal, and he didn't even know it.
• I read every single Harry Potter book over the summer, from the seventh to the first.
• I learned that actually snapping out loud at satan that he smells, and he is ugly, and is just a worm who could never do anything right, really does help to make him back off and, hopefully, cry in a corner.
• I've learned God is always there, and he lets crap happen so I'll be closer to him and understand and what not... But I still get mad at him.

I know pretty much no one reads this, but I suddenly realized how much I needed to boast that I don't just CRY ALL THE TIME. I'm a human, and I have faults, but I don't wallow in them.

Tara

So uhm...

I'm graduating early.
Yup.

Well, uh...

I am terrible at blogging. I actually made this to keep up with the blogs of people I know. Maybe I'll write things now and again? I don't know really.